Epool..

im just a normal human being.. i have desire for food and sex.. i am embarrased to share in this blog about what im feeling this time..

last nite was fun.. it was unplanned.. 6 of us were karakoing till 1.30 am.. and im very sexually attracted to this guy.. name him Epool..

I know him from a friend.. we sms few times and that's about it.. i never thought that he is captivate enough for my attention.. he is just plain guy with straight hair, tanned and toned body.. a little taller from me with a javanese look..

it was sweet last nite, he accomapanied to perform prayer at nearest surau.. kind of sweet, he waited for me until i was done.. i was touched..

then we met at the karaoke centre.. i couldnt help the feeling.. it was cold.. i couldnt help to be in his arms.. i guess he noticed that..

and today.. i cant get him out of my head.. keep imagining things that i want to do to him if he is right here at this moment at my cribs...

Astaghfirullahal'azim....

Aku mmg horny giler kat mamat nih...

mood : horny nak mampus..

teruk la..

ive became a really heavy smoker lately.. kinda of odd, a tudung gal like seeing with cigarette in my hands and puffing the smoke..

ive lost count how much.. but what really count is, the money i spent to cover up my smoking habits from my office colleagues and my family.. my mom especially who really against women who smokes.. mcm jalang kata dia.. ouch..

my mom loves to do a surprise visit to my crib and i always have to make sure that smells is not around.. and it takes a lotttttt to get rid of that smells ok..

i just bought
- 3 different fragrance for my car.. stick to the aircond.. i got dizzy for the different smell.. but it helps..

- bought an aromatherapy for my house.. gosh.. it doesnt work.. the smell is still there.. i have to invest on a stronger one, or maybe candles or whatever.. coz it smells everywhere.. on my sheet, on my table, my bathroom, kitchent, EVERYWHERE..

-i have to open every window and sliding doors to make sure winds blows away all the smokes.. but the it still there..

gosh.. it takes a lot to be a hypocrite.. i think i should call it a quit..

what a mess..