bastard that i miss..

i was surprised to receive emails from him.. yesterday and today..

"i ada masalah, need to talk "
"miss you, cant stop thinking about u at all.. "

i cant stop wondering, how can this be so coincident.. im freaking missing him like crazy and he just know what second to barge in.. fuck him..

i cudnt believe my eyes.. and i cudnt believe what im feeling either.. i realized that he is such a bastard.. got nerve to tell me, miss me and need to talk to me after 4 years of relationship, 2 years of waiting and he blew it off over hundreds of kunun2 second chances, and last break up was thru 1 fucking sms, I FAILED..

anyone stupid can analyze what shit is putting into my plate.. fuck him.. fuck him..

i dont need this man.. is this ego?

this is real hurt deep cut he'd given me for me to remember for the rest of my life..

what should i do about him.. i miss him but i want to kill himm..

arghh.. such a mess..