Things happen for reasons..
This blog been idle for some time.. i was busy updating the other blog.. the happy blog and this is the sad blog.. not that i had a good time these days, i need to pretend happy for some people to make them happy.. thru my blog.. whatever..
What's new.. i got back with my ex and he filled me with empty hopes.. he left me 2 weeks before his wedding thru sms.. there was no closure, no thank you and no good luck wishes.. he's gone.. just like that.. i guess he is too sad(or no balls mebbe?) to tell the truth.. i was left with no choice but to accept it.. i wanted to wish him luck with a new life but i couldnt come near to him.. i wanted to send him wedding gift.. but i cant.. it's just too painful to wish luck to someone that breaks your heart very deeply.. what will happen to the broken hearted one.. so, whenever i think of him, i wish myself, best of luck for my future undertakings as the heartbreaker doesnt seem to feel guilty enough to wish good things for the future as he already ruined the past and present me.. why did I wait.. i guess, i trusted him so much and i was all out for him, to support him.. but, phew, things just didnt happen the way we want it to be.. i was sick for weeks.. yes.. fever, headache resulted from constant crying-to-sleep routine.. i fight.. it's not easy as i missing him very badly till today.. and im still working on it and it's difficult and sounds very remote and painful.. and me, im up, ready to get going to my single not so youthful days while i recover from "missing him sickness"..
Another one, with so many mentally challenged scenarios happening to me, i decided to be the tuds gals.. wear tudung.. everywhere except when im with my muhrim.. yeah.. tuds.. sounds cool.. it's been exactly 21 days.. i regret that i didnt do this much sooner.. god knows how much sins piling up for revealing the long black hair of mine.. ampunkan aku Ya Allah..
I guess that Ive let go 2 past for a whole new present.. I pray for more good deeds to compensate the pain ive gone thru all these years.. Things happen for reasons.. Amin..
What's new.. i got back with my ex and he filled me with empty hopes.. he left me 2 weeks before his wedding thru sms.. there was no closure, no thank you and no good luck wishes.. he's gone.. just like that.. i guess he is too sad(or no balls mebbe?) to tell the truth.. i was left with no choice but to accept it.. i wanted to wish him luck with a new life but i couldnt come near to him.. i wanted to send him wedding gift.. but i cant.. it's just too painful to wish luck to someone that breaks your heart very deeply.. what will happen to the broken hearted one.. so, whenever i think of him, i wish myself, best of luck for my future undertakings as the heartbreaker doesnt seem to feel guilty enough to wish good things for the future as he already ruined the past and present me.. why did I wait.. i guess, i trusted him so much and i was all out for him, to support him.. but, phew, things just didnt happen the way we want it to be.. i was sick for weeks.. yes.. fever, headache resulted from constant crying-to-sleep routine.. i fight.. it's not easy as i missing him very badly till today.. and im still working on it and it's difficult and sounds very remote and painful.. and me, im up, ready to get going to my single not so youthful days while i recover from "missing him sickness"..
Another one, with so many mentally challenged scenarios happening to me, i decided to be the tuds gals.. wear tudung.. everywhere except when im with my muhrim.. yeah.. tuds.. sounds cool.. it's been exactly 21 days.. i regret that i didnt do this much sooner.. god knows how much sins piling up for revealing the long black hair of mine.. ampunkan aku Ya Allah..
I guess that Ive let go 2 past for a whole new present.. I pray for more good deeds to compensate the pain ive gone thru all these years.. Things happen for reasons.. Amin..
posted by Chombi at 9:30 AM
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