shocked and fooled

today, i was shocked, fooled, happy, angry at the same time..

• shocked as i was the last to know.. i accidentaly browse his blog.. apparently, he updated his blog that he is recently married to a lovely lady.. i always thot that he is not the marrying kind.. the kind that can commit.
• fooled coz he's already engaged when we had a fling after i did the calculation from the wedding date in the blog.. i just break off with another ex (err yg aku rasa dia soulmate tu lah and im not proud of this, really.. by the way, he also left me for a so-called family arranged marriage).. it was A fling.. one time kiss and hug semasa zaman jahiliyahku..
• happy coz he is married to someone that he loves dearly.. he took quite a time off since his last relationship, abt 10 years.. his ex happened to be a close friend of mine.. she's also happily married with 2 kids..
• angry coz that explains the shock on his face when i bumped into him with his wife (i didnt know that she's the wife, ingatkan gf ke apa) in cineleisure damansara.. i was smiling at him but he just turn his back on me and drag the wife to the other side.. i was puzzled and stunned..

i will not be this angry if he had told me earlier.. why thru blog.. why cant even call me or at least sms me.. we were friends for years.. i will not punish him for the fling we had that nite.. it was silly, it was raining ,it was cold and i was fragile..

i totally get it..

aku rasa bodoh sangat..